I'm currently on my Emergency Department attachment at TTSH and I'm really loving it! =D Really hope I can do my PRCP down there, awesome place, people and environment for me. Its so dynamic, so fast paced, exciting, I'm so full of adrenaline I think I can afford to give some to those patients who collapsed. Haha. Okay, sorry, not a funny issue. Managed to perform CPR, a little airway management for 2 cases today. Quite sad to abort resus, cos the person was already asystole for a very long time already. =( Saw my first death and did my first last office, I said a little prayer and felt much better thereafter. I think I can handle death better now, and in a better light. =)
Although there are so many Nurse Managers, Clinicians, Officers around, I think its a great opportunity to learn from all of them and do my best to impress them so I can come back to do my PRCP there.
Got to know quite a few nurses and staff at the ED and its really nice. Met staff from other departments who were patients and Yu ling, a school mate from the same lecture group who was admitted too! So many many peopleeeeee.
Haha, Its my last day at the ED tomorrow, I'm really going to miss it. =D Next up OT. I can't believe I even bought those fake crocs for $6.90 to wear in the OT. GOSHHHHH. Ugly stuff. But, no choice. =/
So, before I end, I conclude; I want to be an ED nurse in the future, no matter how long it takes, I want to end up there. =D
Friday, August 07, 2009
Today's gonna be the day that my baby comes back to me...
No one ever saw me like you do All the things that I could add up too I never knew just what a smile was worth But your eyes see everything without a single word
'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be I never know what you see But there's somethin' in the way you look at me
If I could freeze a moment in my mind It'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine I'd like to stop the clock, make time stands still 'Cause, baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel
'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be I never know what you see But there's somethin' in the way you look at me
I don't know how or why I feel different in your eyes All I know is it happens every time
'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be I never know what you see But there's somethin' in the way you look at me
The way you look at me
I'm feeling a whole lot better since I woke up, maybe its the magic my baby imparted to me when he kissed me good night last night. =) He came over last night for a short nights out. But good enough for me. Won't be seeing him for another week or so.
Ever felt the constant craving, to be in someone's arms, to be held close, to just see his face. Its not easy. Today I headed over to his place cos his cousin, Stacey Yamaguchi, the very cute girl and his aunt will be returning home to the US tomorrow morning. So went over to hang out with them for a bit. =) Chatted, snacked(amazingly my appetite returned!) went to walk walk at hougang point and watched Hercules, napped than had dinner and Cranium.
While I was napping in Daryl's room, hugging his zoot zoot made my thoughts revolve around and back to Daryl, and the times I had laughing, crying and pigging out in that very room with him. But it felt so different, almost empty, the most important factor was just missing. I'm sorry I'm so love sick. I really wanted to blog about other things, but I CANT HELP IT.
Try having a bf in the army.
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Urgh, I'm probably boring you people out. sorry. I'll just leave it for now. =/
Right now, I wish and wish I were in school, with my friends getting ready for Nafa. Laughing and joking around.
I wish I were well, to have leaps and bounds of energy.
Being sick is so depressing. I might have H1N1, I might not. They're not telling us anymore. All I do is sleep, wake up for medicine, get drowsy and sleep again.
I'm as pale as my sad room walls.
I want to cry and scream, I need him during times like this.
But he can't be here even though he wants to. All I'm doing now is waiting, waiting and waiting. Waiting to get better, waiting for Daryl to come out, waiting to wait. Waiting to get courted, waiting to be taken out. Waiting and wondering if its all worth it. I know it is, but I can't help but wonder.
Feeling so sick and lethargic. Been having a low grade fever but I feel so sick. Cold, but warm. Awake yet sleepy. Sigh. I need to be in school. =(
One thing did cheer me up today, news that Daryl is having a nights off tonight! Yay. Hope he can spend time with me tonight. But I'm so sick, I don't wish to pass it to him. His friends were nice enough to ask him which nights off would be better for him, tonight or tomorrow. I'm not sure if that panda would want me to still go for practice even though I'm in this state. He'll probably think I'm lying and just giving excuses to skip the 'oh-so-important' rehearsals.
My views on this upcoming musical is thats its just another egoistic move to prove that HE is the best. Doing last minute work and stressing everyone out. Over working poor us. Being so bitchy about the whole thing, its really annoying. Oh wells, at least I know my stand.
bla bla blaaa...
I'm so bored. So bored of being sick........ Think I'll try to study.
ps, GUESS WHAT I FOUND!! HAHAHAHAHA!!
HAHA, I used to dance to this when I was in Primary school. =) Bet you did too!
I caught the bug from brother dear, so I'm down with the sore throat, snuffles and mild fever.
According to my doctor, this bug spreads like a wild fire, might be mild for me, but serious to others. So, 1 day MC for me. =(
Going to miss the Air Viva Function test today, lap practice and very important 3113 lecture. So crappy. With my skills test coming up next week and theory test next Friday, its going to be crazy. I can't focus due to the palpitations and sedative drugs.
Last night when I called Daryl to tell him that the drowsy meds were kicking in and that I was going to crash, he asked me to hang on for half an hour more. I was like @_@ mad ah you. Than I turned my phone to normal mode, incase he called later and dosed off to sleep.
After about half an hour, I felt someone/something on my bed next to me, in a very defensive mode I opened my eyes and jumped slightly, only to see a silhouette of Daryl beside me, looking at me with a smile. I immediately softened and got up to kiss and hug him oh so tightly. His smell, warmth, voice just serenaded me, like it always does. I almost cried, its been more than a week since I last saw him. I miss him so much, it drives me crazy. Lucky for me school, work and church keeps me from being idle, keeps me sane.
My baby slimed down, beacme a lil more muscular (so he claims) and looked so charming, comely, cute and simply amazing. Although a lil tired from his lack of sleep due to duties and night watching.
That moment seemed to last forever, him holding me in his arms, kissing my forehead. <3
That moment, my fatigue seemsed to have faded away, my sore throat was still there but I hardly took notice of it. He insisted I rested in bed, while he sat next to me and leaned acrossed to touch my (messy messy) hair. His soft voice telling me how much he missed me and love me. His eyes looking at me like I was the most beautiful thing he has ever seen, even though I was so pale, unkempt hair, not an inch of makeup on my face, wearing his over sized tee and an over sized shorts hugging my baby bolster. (which he calls my zoot zoot) He always makes fun of it by taking it and holding it by its ends and commenting; Look! Its so nuah and there's nothing left in it!!
In its defence and about 15 years of sleeping with it at night, I would snatch it back and inhale the ever comfortable scent it has had for the longest time. Holding it tightly and making Daryl jealous. =)
FYI, my zoot zoot is not like some people's, its not smelly, it has a cover which I change weekly and I wash it regualrly.
Its seriously the most cozy thing, and brings me most comfort in times of need.
Daryl agrees it has the nicest smell too! =) I sat out of bed and cuddles with him. Every kiss we shared made me melt further into his strong arms. He cradelled me like a baby and THATS the feeling I never want to forget. As I cuddled up closer to his chest feeling him, hearing his steady heat beat, its like a fairytale come true. We hardly exchanged words as his presence was the most important.
Daryl stayed with me till about 11pm till he had to return to that dreaded place. It was so hard letting him go. Even after he put on his shoes, I dashed outside to hug him once more and whispered into his ears; Don't go. Even though we all know he has to. Like a replay everyweek when I have to bite my lips and let him go.
When I woke up today, last night seemed like a dream, it still does feel like it. I'm still having a mild fever but the sore throat has gone away with the medication Dr. Hsu prescribed me. I gotta prepare my own lunch now. Then take another dose of meds, than head to bed.
ps. Baby, God must have spent a lil more time on you.
Yeah.... Oh yes Ohhh..yeah.. Can this be true? Tell me, can this be real? How can I put into words what I feel? My life was complete I thought I was whole Why do I feel like I'm losing control? I never thought that love could feel like this and you've changed my world with just one kiss. How can it be that right here with me there's an angel? It's a miracle...
Your love is like a river Peaceful and deep Your soul is like a secret That I never could keep When I look into your eyes I know that it's true God must have spent... A little more time On you... (A little more time, yes he did baby)
In all of creation All things great and small You are the one that surpasses them all More precious than Any diamond or pearl They broke the mold When you came in this world And I'm trying hard to figure out Just how I ever did without The warmth of your smile The heart of a child That's deep inside Leaves me purified
Your love is like a river Peaceful and deep (and deep) Your soul is like a secret That I never could keep When I look into your eyes I know that it's true God must have spent... A little more time On you... (on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh... (on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) yeah...
Never thought that love could feel like this and you changed my world with just one kiss. How can it be that right here with me There's an angel? It's a miracle...
Your love is like a river Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep) Your soul is like a secret That I never could keep When I look into your eyes I know that it's true God must have spent... A little more time On you... (on you, on you, on you, you..) God must have spent... A little more time on you (on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah) A little more time on you...ohhh
Feeling a lil happy from some adrenaline rush I had earlier on looking at a very disgusting picture of... haha. I had to spread the word too. HAHA. Ran all the way to the next computer lab to tell Banu and Sharan and a few others. HAHAHA
okok. A lil mean but who cares? You don't even know what I'm talking about! HAHAHA. Spoke to Daryl for about 9 mins before my tutorial, had quite a good laugh discussing about how we should fight, like rules and all. So hiliarous la. He requested a refree and I told him if so, it would have to be me. Hahaha. And he'll always loose. =) So, there after I'll feel so bad that I'd go running to him to make-out to make up. HAHAHA. gawwwwd. He likes, no, LOVES the idea. Seriously, guys stuck in army camps are so deprived that they're so fucking horny. We should invent a medication to prevent horny-ness. Save them the torture. Hur hur hurrrr.
WHEEEEEEE!!! *do the cartwheel sideways and jump up and down!!!*
Actually, firstly, I can't go cartwheels, front ways of sideways. But I can jump! HAHAHAHA. sorry I'm so random, something wrong with my brain now. Too tired, the computer labs at level 5 is FREEZING, I'm wearing Daryl's 'da rou' jacket, listening to Rascal Flatts on my mp3 making me a lil high. Hahahahahahahaha..
Baby, you make the sun shine down You make the sun shine down You can paint the darkest clouds And turn them into rainbows You take your secret smile The one that turns me on Hey girl, you've been what I've waited for.zzzzzzzzzzzzzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAA!
OOh, anyone wants to take a trip to Kranji War Memorial? Apparently, Daryl told me that he'd be there on Thurs for some army shit, and he subtly suggested I go there to see him, cos its a 'public place'.
Abit arrrr.... Meet my boyfriend at a cemetry? and be excited about it. HAHAHA. I'm sure the dead would raise and dance along with us. HAHAHA.
so randommm. Ok, I think the hypoglycaemia is kicking in. Plus I'm late for my meeting. Oops. CIAOOOOOOOO!!!!
100 to sleep [very important to maintain happiness]
50 hours to spend with Daryl
5 to eat
5 for work
30 for friends and fun
10 for school and school work.
GAWDDDDDD. I'm dying. seriously. I can hardly drag myself out of bed now a days. I ache from playing the super-awesome-wii-game Raymans Raving Rabbits. SO fun la. I go crazy playing it. Haha. Esp the dances. Woot woot!
I hope that's 'exercizing' cos thats all the sports I do. @_@
Another hit at home now is the recently bought Guitar Hero. My siblings and Sub can play it for hours and hours. Crazyyyyy. I get so tired after awhile.
I just realized I need my own digi camera. Sharing one with my entire family is a pain in the neck. I can't take much personal pics. Plus I can't take random pictures of my AWESOME Threadless Tees which just came today! And my Laced corset top from Hollyhoqe!!
Feels so awesome to receive so many parcels of goodies in one day! Hehehehe!!
Whahahahaha.
I seriously need to STOP online shopping. I was doing so well trying to increase my income and decrease output. But, with such a darling boyfriend whom I love to pamper. And SO ATTRACTIVE clothes online. Its a lil hard la. =/
Anyway, back to the 'need my own camera' issue, I realize I hardly take pictures with Daryl. @_@, which is so sad. Cos when he gets confined in camp, I don't really have many pictures to stare at to be that creepy girlfriend. Haha. LET ME CATCH A FALLING CAMERA FROM THE SKY!
In my dreams. haha.
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I want my boyfriend to come home. =(
TSKKKKK.
Gahhhh. I hardly have a life. Year 3 is quite crazy. Exams are coming soon! Gotta start bucking up.
These are my 2 favourite pieces from the collection;
Im so glad its a Friday. Tomorrow my baby will be booking out at 630am latest. So I hope I'll be able to wake up to be at his place to surprise him. =) Really miss him badly this week.
So school's out next week but we have to go back for some clinical practice, which I have no idea whats that. Lab skills lessons or??? I have no idea, if anypne knows whats that pls tell me.
Oh!!! Yes yes yess.. did I mention that my darling Daryl bought me that 'hot-pink-guess-bag-by-the-window-of-Raffels-Place', I think I've been 'visiting' the bag way too many times. So I'm quite sure I like it. Thank you baby!!
The ont I got is slightly different, but thats the idea.
So far the comments I get about the bag are like,
Mummy- Its so......loud.
Other random people- nice, too pink, cute, wha new bag ah.
Hahaha. Don't care what people say, I like it a lot. =) A good change from ugly brown bags that I've been carrying.
When I do have time to think, stone, space out. Usually one thing, or should I say person comes to mind. Yes, its Daryl. The crazy amount of time I have to spend apart from him, the ratio of time spent together is so much less than time apart. Its 'not fair'. =/
I had a lil meltdown yesterday as I was on the train to work. The TORTURE I put myself through to wait for everyweek to crawl by. So I can just see his face, hold him and smell him. Oh that smell. Makes me dizzy in love all the time. sigh. Looking thorugh his fb pictures like some stalker. Haha. I like this one, so cute la.
I totally cannot imagine him with long hair now la. SOOOO HILARIOUS. I think I would just laugh and laugh at him. Like how I laughed at his Hawaiian surf shorts. HAHAHAHAHA. I guess I was a lil mean, but it really was sooooo funny! I think I laughed so hard, he joined me. Hahah.
I miss him, so much. Would only be able to see him this Saturday due to the ownage of his ass by the gahmen and armeee. =(
Anyway, though I would just list down a few fun-facts about my darou for his entertainment when he reads this. HAHAHA.
1. He is still a kid
2. He finishes an entire big box of cereal every weekend.
3. His fav is Coco pops, crunch, whatever. Haha.
4. He had to eat it with his (awesome) Master Shifu cereal spoon from Kungfu panda.
5. He can draw AMAZINGLY well, but just won't admit it. Hahahhaa. Don't agree with me? This is one of my favourite pieces. Hehe.
6. We love drawing together.
Its like we really connect when we draw and pass the pencil and moleskin over to each other.
7. Daryl and I simply LOVE to nuah at home, we're home-bodies. We hardly 'go out', 'date', watch movies in the theater, but we watch tonnes of dvds at home. =)
8. His Grandma's cooking is AWESOMEEEEEE.
9. Daryl cannot give me back massages, all he does is tickle me till I squirm like some worm laughing my ass off. =D hahahahaha
10. I love this boy, with all my heart, and will do my best to be true to him always. =) Cos I see a very bright future with him.
Bottom line, is that I really miss him. And his Tee that I took home to smell and comfort myself is running out of Daryl-ness. =( Come home soon dear. I miss you. And the fact that you've been outfield and only have Msia reception does not help at all. You owe me a huge hug and a kiss.
Okay, I better get my ass out of the bed. Meeting Shauna dear. =)
Did this shoot on Sat afternoon at Iz's place. Was pretty fun. Thank goodness for fans and air-conditioners! The weather was simply horrid with it being so hot and humid!
Whoo, okie. All of the pieces were really comfy and very nice. =) Haha, bet you guys could spot some really weird facial expressions. hur hur hurrrr.
Okie, whatever la. Ciao.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
Wooooow!!
I'm so impressed. Apparently my one-time-venting-frustration-session about smelly people can cause such a rah rah on my tag board.
Well, thank you people for your very interesting feedback. Isn't that what a blog is for? To put my thoughts and to vent whatever emotions I have out. I'm sorry if i have offended anyone because of it.
Oh wells, guess you are really nice people who accepts everyone for who they are, unlike myself, who let my emotions and words go wild, as I speak my mind on my own blog. Good for you. So I should learn from you.
But, I'm also human, shouldn't you accept me for who I am? Someone who is venting her emotions on her own blog? Oh well, I guess not. Too bad for me then.
Well, I admit I was pretty mean and harsh, even Daryl told me so. I sincerely apologize to anyone who got offended while reading my post. But my bottom line is, people should be more aware and considerate about how they smell, out of respect for others around them. For example, you would not want to smell horrid while meeting your friends, family etc. because you care for them and you don't want them to be uncomfortable.
And I think that in Singapore, the government has taken measures that everyone is accessible to proper sanitation facilities. Its like 'against the law' for people to live in poor housing, places with poor hygiene standards? Correct me if I'm wrong. But that's the impression I got from the steps the gov took from fining the people who lived at city plaza or somewhere?? I read it in the papers a few weeks ago. Like its illegal for 30+ people to live in one flat or something along that line.
So therefore I came to a conclusion that everyone in Singapore should have access to proper bathrooms to keep themselves hygienic, as we want to promote primary health care, which prevention of diseases is the main aim. Unless their toilets are spoilt and they HAVE NO WAY of getting access to a bathroom. Or their toilets are under renovation, er.. or they're being bullied by others and so they're not allowed to take showers?? Or, they forgot to pay their utilities bill and their water supply got cut off?
I don't know the reason but I'm so sorry for them then.
hur hur hurrr. sorry la Tiffany, I know you like to read juicy stories on my blog, but I really have no time, (sometimes) energy to drag my fingers to type www.blogger.com haha.
Okay, since I have some time on my hands today cos of the freaking 3 hours break our lovely school has allocated for us every Friday I shall get my blog moving.
Like Kenn would say; Welcome to poly life, where people planning timetables suck at their jobs.
Well anyway, I would like to share my views about bus rides, smelly cheena workers and ladies who use piercing perfumes.
Everytime when I get up for (perticularly) 9am lectures, and board the SBS service 70 @ 8.05am. I would expect the single deck bus to be jam packed with all sorts of people. But what I really dread the most is the very considerate aroma that the cheena workers (no offence to the normal cheena people who smell fine) expel from their bodies. Firstly, you people smell like fucking dogs, no dogs smell better. Its EARLY in the morning, and you're going to work. I would like to assume that you people came from your homes/houses and you were SLEEPING before that. Don't want to bathe in the morning? Nevermind. Just brush your teeth and please just wash up and SMELL yourselves before leaving the house. Its ok if you already look dirty, don't spread your smells to everyone on the bus, you know, in Singapore we have AIR-CONDITIONED BUSES.
You people probably are too used to that AWFUL smell circulating around you. I seriously feel so sad for you. If you want to be that way, just don't let the whole world know you don't bathe or that you don't give a fuck about personal hygiene.
Lucky for me, I only suffer, breathing in this toxic stench for the next 2 bus stops. After which these people squeeze their dirty bodies and bring most of their smells off the bus. (I'm not even starting on their garments.) By then, if I'm lucky I would have gotten a seat and got myself comfortable and very thankful that I need not increase my chances of getting lung cancer.
But, my beautiful pleasant journey comes to a screeching halt when a working class lady sits her decently dressed ass next to me.
Whats so bad about that you may ask? Its fine when you sit to a normal person. NOT when you sit next to someone who is sticky, (how do I know? cos she rubbed some of her arm perspiration on me, THATS WHY) and probably someone who has a BO. (Body odour for you who do not know) But what I smell is COMPLETELY different and of the most unimaginable level.
Picture this;
Lady sprays large amount of cheap (fucking smelly) perfume with a piercing scent that makes you choke for air.
Lady runs for bus.
Squeezes with others to get on the bus first.
Lady sweats.
Lady sits next to you.
Sweat + (smelly) perfume = you gagging away, gasping for air.
How nice and it lasted for the EINTRE 20 mins that I was on the bus.
I had 3 choices,
1. Lean forward constantly to be able to breath 2. Cover my nose with my (life-saving) jacket 3. Tolerate and gag my way through
I did 3 first, followed by a few glances at the lady. I bet she had NO IDEA that she was causing me to regurgitate my taosa-pia that I ate earlier in the morning.
Followed by no. 1 when I found that there was a pool of fresh air in front of me. And when that pool of 'fresh air' turned fuck smell, I just covered my nose and mouth with my jacket the entire journey till she got off at the station.
I could hear the heavens sing when she stood up and got off the bus.
*inserts sigh of relief*
Lessons learnt;
1. Never make yourself sweat when perfume has been applied. 2. Sweat + perfume = fucksmell 3. Earn enough money to afford a car or take taxi everyday. 4. Pon 9am lectures. 5. Cheena people who take service 70 every morning don't care how they smell like. (fucksmell) 6. Invent an easy to carry around mask to block out fucksmells.
Have a nice day everyone. Don't let fucksmells ruin your day! =)
WHY!?!?!?! Stupid H1N1 SWINE FLU!! 1st case confirmed in Singapore.
Didn't want to believe it when Sharan texed it to me. So I turned on the tv to Channel News Asia, and there it was, starring right at me ' Singapore confirms first case of H1N1 flu'.
This means, temperature taking starts again, everyone's going to rush to buy the N95 mask, we're soon going to be in a state of panic. A silent panic if you ask me.
I've got a queer feeling its going to spread quite rapidly and the death count will go up.
God bless all of us. Lets seriously help by being hygienic and considerate. Its so gross that I still see people sneezing loudly and without covering their mouths, making sure their germs, and virus is spread to everyone around them. Ya, we totally feel your love. Thanks for being an asshole.
I can't help but feel rather worried about the flu, seriously. I'm actually quite scared. =/
Sigh. I hope people wake up their idea and all we can do is pray to be sparred.
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